Awe to Sleep or Not

 Its thursday already and I haven't written anything . Its much easier to write something when you don't need to. My life is just a series of ups and downs. Nothing really changes much just do the day to day motions of living and then sleep. Sleep is really underrated . Sometimes I feel like I could sleep for a month straight, and I would probably still be tired. I can sleep anywhere at any time. Driving, sit at the chiropractor office, talking to someone, reading, it really doesn't matter where I am at  I can sleep.
              Mom and my sister decided that I have sleep apenea and got me this wonderful contraption that you strap to your head and it pumps air into you. I can see how it could work , the problem is I can't find a way to turn the pressure down so after having it on for an hour or so I could inflate a couple tires on my own I have so much pressure. My head feels like its going explode , I guess thats why they put all the straps on the device. Not to hold it to your head, but to hold your head together. I put it on once and actually went to sleep for a few minutes , but when I did my mouth came open and I sounded like a jet engine with serious mechanical problems , Hissing and spluttering, my dog went to the other room. He wanted no part of what was going on with me.  So how can you sleep well at night ? I can't sleep on a bed its to soft so I sleep on the floor.
                     Other news of the day, my diet worked fairly good last week. I wasn't super careful  about what I ate but was careful not to eat in the evenings. I lost 5 pounds so I'm happy . Only a hundred pounds to go.
                    Yesterday I took my car into a consignment place to sell, Sad day but really no other choice, I need the money and don't have the money anymore to do the upkeep on it, I grudgingly told God its His to do whatever He wanted to do with it.  I keep reading that verse that says' seek ye first the kingdom of heaven,' I don't see how that car helped me do that , so hopefully it will sell soon and I'm going to go buy some tools . If thats His plan if not whatever His plan is. I'm committed now so its up to Him. I'm not crazy , well I'm pretty sure I'm not.  Patience thats what I need , I have no patience, I'm quite sure that God is telling me to wait so again I grudgingly do it. I'm like one of those really obstinate sons. No wonder I get a lot of discipline. My advice here is if God asks you to do something , big or small , just do it. Things will end up much better.
      I really wish there was a sign I would just read and know  what God wants, but as everyone knows that not the way it works. The way I'm starting to see it is the Bible is pretty clear what God's will is for me and what His purpose for my life is, so I'm going to try to follow that as well as I can and see if the rest falls into place.  Not exactly sure how thats going to work but I'm starting , car is one of the first things to go. Not much else left of my old life so I'll see where I get headed next. Oh man my sisters don't know about this one yet so they're going to be checking to see which screw came loose this time. Does anyone else think about this stuff or is it just me having to much time on my hands.
       I think I'm going to go prune so trees today, I watched how to do it on youtube so I'm excited to go hack up a couple apple trees. For some reason I'm guessing the video makes it look easier than it really is.   Yesterday and this morning when I got up there was a big bright light in a blue colored sky. Does anyone know what it is , if you get the light on you it feels warm.  The sky here is always gray and no bright lights.  : )
           Keep following God , don't be depressed for no reason, like me.   Life is really good , God is good.  I just make myself miserable.   I'll try to do better next time
                                 Love God, love everyone . See ya next time.